yayy it's a new year! which means it's time for me to reflect and think about my goals. i was rereading my entries from 2025 and honestly i really do feel like such a different person. i grew so much, my negativity feels so odd to read back on. but i guess since i had such a great second half of 2025, i kind of forgot exactly how hard of a time i was having before.
first off, school feels like a decade ago. LOL. yes i ended up graduating on time, it was great. my plan after that was to study for my certs, but i only earnestly studied like at most 3 times. i spent a vast majority of my 2025 post-grad focusing on my social life. hanging out w my boyfriend and my friends, trips (went to miami w my bf for my bday and TN w a bunch of friends for his bday), the times my mom visited.. i didn't feel bad about any of this until very recently, probs the last week of december. i was thinking about my future and how in 2026 i absolutely want to get a salary job so that i can leave my warehouse job, basically i got a lot of anxiety bc i have very low belief in my abilities. and how i always have these goals and say i'm going to do stuff but nothing comes to fruition bc i don't do anything. but rather than wallowing in my self-pity, i will just do better. bc there is no point of complaining abt how much i complain. what is the point of being so self-aware if i don't do anything to fix my negative traits? this will be my top priority goal of the year. and i absolutely will do it.
with losing weight, i actually made A LOT of progress in 2025. the smallest i got down to was like 114.8 lbs. that's like 20 lbs lost. and i gymed like frfr, not as consistent as i would like, but i did weightlifting and a lot of ab workouts with cardio. ik reading back i was annoyed at myself for only doing cardio, but it was an earnest start at my journey to weight loss. and it's still exercise. i definitely need to drop the mindset of believing one form of exercise is "better" than the other, i'm not trying to become a bodybuilder, i literally just want to be healthy and fit in my clothes nicely. i will say i was for sure redeveloping a toxic mindset towards dieting (as you can obv see from me LITERALLY saying i was going to PURGE gurl bye), definitely did a lot of starving etc. but since like oct/nov i stopped weighing myself daily and just ate as i pleased tbh. on jan 1st i was 123 ish lbs, last time i weighed myself i was 118 lbs idek when that was. but i feel fine. for fitness goals this year, i just want to be active everyday (closing my circles, even just a 30min walk) and eat cleaner. definitely want to decrease my fast food intake. i can for sure do that. i've been on BC for abt a month now and i don't feel like it has increased my appetite which is nice too. but yeah, i feel happy and positive abt my body. i really don't want to spiral down the toxicity of losing weight again. there's really no need for me to lose weight, i just need to gain muscle. i DO NOT want to care or ever gaf about numbers ever again.
with my relationship, HE IS THE LOML!!!!! it took a minute for my brain to readjust since i was so used to not trusting someone and assuming the worst, but he's shown me time and time again that i have nothing to worry about. he's really really sweet to me. there's so much i could say, but it's everything i've alr told him. i can't wait for another great year with him (: we celebrate our 1 year this february. we're going to houston TX yayyy!!
with my friends, i have definitely created stronger relationships with all of them. i threw a lot of parties and made a lot of plans, it was a rly fun year. even got to visit bestie leilei w aaron and aslin in october :D this year i will do the same but will make sure to prioritize my initial goals first. i did have like a couple weird realizations and was disappointed w 2 ppl in my life, don't talk to them anymore or at least for now (1 is wayyy worse than the other) but HEY that's just apart of life. i'm grateful for the ones that are still here w me. just more lessons i guess.
SO!! i will now work on my full list of 2026 goals. here were my 2025 goals.
- i built up my savings!
- i started gymming forreals!
- i ate cleaner! i stopped eating fast food so late and actually had my diet in check! i also meal prepped my lunches for work (:
- i got my waist down to 24-25 inches!
- i spent LOTSSS of time with my friends! +got bf that i love dearly
- i went on 4 vacations!
- i baked cupcakes for my coworkers i think 2 times LOL
- i was starting to track my spending, but gave up p fast LOL. w this i just more so want to focus on having no spending days + being very intentional w my purchases.
- i actually started running w my bf for a bit!! but the holidays caught up to us, we will start again this monday (:
- hard to say w my water intake, but it's better than it usually is for sure i would say.
- i REALLY attempted my reading challenge, but i kept running into books i hated. for this year, i will 1) lower my goal and 2) drop books if i don't enjoy them. my problem is i always FORCE myself to finish and it ruins my whole flow.
- i didn't do anything w my career pertaining to my major, but i'm still proud of myself for slightly moving up at work even if it was just for peak season.
