what's up girlies

im thinking about linking this blog to my tumblr........hmmm..
also this post is more of an update on just some things




i'm going to florida with my family's friends for like two days lol!! we're leaving to go late saturday and leaving to come back early tuesday. i packed all my things in a big backpack and ik i'm gonna regret it later bc i'm gonna have no space to put extra stuff (like things i buy) :'( LOL

should i start making mixes again? i used to make them all the time and had a good amount of feedback and followers.. just idk jenjfknkwbiquw i tried like i really did try and i have a lot of private and unlisted mixes but :// also i've noticed that a majority of users that frequently made mixes (ME) and were quite popular (not me) don't make them anymore and i think that's because of the soundcloud thing lolololol

hmm. i really didn't want to mention this because i feel like it will prevent me from reaching my goal by tricking my mind into thinking i'm finished w it somehow (ik that sounds weird ig but it has happened multiple times before) BUT! i'm,,,writing a story. ok the thing is i've tried to write stories before but i can't do it like .... i'm so used to just writing whatever comes to mind like i don't plan out anything when i'm writing essays for school i just go with the ~flow~ but i really cant do that if i'm trying to write a long story. and ik what ur thinking jndbiwqhbqeiuq like CLEARLY YOU CANT DO THAT!! and yeah ik ikikikikik but it took me a long time to accept that ok omg BUT LIKE this story i am really going to try i've created character profiles lol and also i feel like i do better when i can make up the rules of the world? like fantasy sorta?? like it's soooo hard for me to write stories where the characters are in a plain american high school or whatever.. but yeah and i have the main idea down and it's actually pretty interesting ik that sounds vain but it's a lot different from the other things i've tried to write which are usually just boring plain old high skooler fallz in luv~ w boy xD and NOT SAYING ALL STORIES LIKE THAT ARE BORING but it's always been the same thing that i've done and i rjbfhweqbivunob idk if i'm explaining this well i'm sorta just rambling rn but yeah. i am really looking forward to it!!! i don't wanna say what it's about like the storyline but it's supposed to b mainly a soulmate au but .......things got wild ;;;;] tht makes no sense but whatever lolz!

wow. that was a long paragraph! but guess what! i'm still gonna talk about writing! ok so LMFAO i have that story going on right i'm still planning it out i haven't written anything yet but i find it easier to work with compared to my other story (aka the one i'm about to mention rn) bc i can make up the rules and like i don't have to search anything up beside a few "minor" things jfbwiauubuwqod okok but the FIRST (of many bye) story i had in mind and like i said i don't wanna spill anything but it's gonna possibly require me searching up and learning about the human anatomy omfgggggg and i have to learn A LOT about trees onfbiwnqkidbfnj it's also sort of a fantasy world but i don't know if i want it to be separate from earth or have it ON earth you know........ but this is making me really happy the past few days and the fact that i'm talking about it is probably going to ruin it all but whatever i really really needed to let this all out ommggmgfidikbdj and for now i'll just refer to them as the soulmate au and the um... tree story LMFAOOOO but the tree one ok i wrote a chapter about it in april and haven't touched on it since because it has kind of a complicated story line??? i plan to do smth w it but yeah. OMG ALSO!!

this paragraph is STILL gonna b about writing but since it's a different story too imma move it here okok so i have this other OTHER good good good story that was before the tree one and it's about humans ghosts and the afterlife rite but i don't know if i should continue w it (i think i wrote a chapter already) because im afraid if i finish it and publish it for the internet 2 see people might not like it because i mess around with the "rules" of the afterlife?????? like i totally ripped everything from religion away in the story it's also just me making up things (which is really really fun) but yeah.. then again that'll be their problem and wtf LMFAOOO WHAT AM I THINKING I'M NOT WRITING FOR OTHER PEOPLE I'M WRITING FOR ME LOLOL AND!!! the characters hmm idk it might be hard for me to write cause it's meant to be ............sort of an angst??? IDK???? i mean one of the guys does d*e lolololol BKDJNDWQBWKK well whatever!!! i'll think about it... i'm so excited i think this is the most serious and nicest and POSITIVE i've sounded in one of these posts LMFAOOOO but yeah!!!!!!!!!!!!

one thing i'm kinda afraid is how boring i'll make it sound though :/ storyline is GREAT plot is GREAT but characters are dull.....bad description....too much telling and no showing....hmmm i'm afraid of that and my grammar lol i'm good at writing in school but still idk I'M SCARED!

fucccc i rambled so much well jdiqnfogin im thinking about buying a disposable camera and maybe i'll post some pics from florida? SIKE this is not an actual personal blog........i used to have one but it was so embarassing aughinfkfbnfjbhfkhjehwgwebiufjwij not gonna do that lol and it takes a long time to bring the pics to blogger and i don't like blogger app! whatever this "paragraph" is useless lolz

wellllll i think that's all i gotta say! if you read the whole thing then thx :) im super super happy rn lol

*update: ok i went through all my old posts and there aren't a lot published even though i have over thirty drafts that i unpublished in early june but i'm thinking,,,,maybe i'll link it on tumblr hmm.. idk though because then i'll get worried about what people will think of me fbwjhefijbfcm whatever lolzzzzzz