the trip to TN was soooooo great. i feel so much closer to him and a lot less tense. i didn't even drink really on the trip. and i didn't hate my body. he doesn't make me feel insecure at all. i lost all negative thoughts. which gave me so much relief. i really do like him, he makes me feel at peace. that means so so so so much to me.
i feel like i'm a person that needs a lot of reassurance, so my mind can go a bit crazy when i feel like he's acting distant (he never does anything super distant, it's just my brain being dramatic) but he only does so when he's stressed. so i try not to take it to heart cus i know he's going through a hard time. otherwise we match pretty well. we don't share that many similar interests i feel like? but it still works. i just love being in his presence.
i look up to him a lot, i respect him. which to me means almost more than love.
oh yeah, he told me i should just focus on body recomp essentially, cus if i lose anymore weight i won't really have much to work with. which is true. i just want to look more leaner. as long as i'm consistent, i should be great.
yep. yeah. yayyy. LOL
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